Post-It Challenge Days 4, 5, & 6

Posted: July 26, 2014 in Post-It Challenge
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So I’ve gotten a bit behind on posting my post-its, so here are 3 post its.

Day 4:

I love my STRONG legs!

I love my STRONG legs!

I’ve always liked my legs in appearance, and I love even more adding muscle and seeing what they are capable of. My squat is up to 145 lbs (5 sets of 5 reps), btw. So I’d say my legs can do some pretty cool things!

Day 5:

I deserve people in my life who truly care about me.

I deserve people in my life who truly care about me.

Ok, so this one is a little different than the others. I’m letting this “challenge” be an organic thing for me. The goal of this, again, is to recondition my brain towards positive thinking and self-love. Most of these have been about things I like about myself and my life- focusing on the positive to drown out the negative. For day 5 though, this seemed like what was most important that I remind myself of and focus on. While it isn’t about the positive in my life right now, per se, it’s a reminder and reaffirmation that I deserve positives in my life.

And I need to remind myself that what I truly deserve, is people who actually care about me. This stems from stuff in my personal life at the moment, I’ve somewhat recently made some big changes in my life and big changes in who is in my life. Sometimes I feel bad and down about letting to of negative people, and so I need to remember this. I need to remember that what I deserve is people who care about me, and so there is no reason to feel in any way negative about letting go of people who don’t.

Day 6:

I am very intelligent

I am very intelligent

It comes as a surprise to some people that I don’t often feel this way. Because most people who know me wold easily describe me as such, and I have two degrees and am working on my PhD- I surely don’t need reaffirmation of this, right?

What most people don’t know is that I’m mildly dyslexic. Something that was not diagnosed when I was a kid. So I grew up with a lot of difficulties associated with dyslexia- trouble knowing right from left. Eventually I just memorized which hand has a small scar on it. I still, mostly out of habit these days, look for the scar on my hand when someone says right or left. In writing I would often mix up “d”s and “b”s or even more common for me was “b”s and “p”s. And when I tried learning Hebrew in college I had similar problems- I believe gimmel and zayin where two I had trouble with (I sadly don’t remember how to write in hebrew anymore). I can look back now and realize that was just the dyslexia, but at the time, I remember when I made these mistakes getting looked at as if I was stupid, or sometimes directly asked if I was. And I really internalized that and spent a long time thinking that whenever I was doing well in school or the like it was just because people felt bad for me and were afraid to tell me how stupid I really was.

Which is also an important lesson in how you can never tell from the outside what people are struggle with internally.

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